I am currently 6 months pregnant and I already struggle with anxiety. I really am looking forward to my baby being born because I feel like it will renew my purpose.

But right now and for the last year or so I’ve been depressed and feeling dissociated or disconnected from everyone. My dad died in January last year before my wedding and finding out I was pregnant, and I still have PTSD from that because I discovered him deceased. On top of that, I am so sad he is going to miss out on my son’s life.

I have also been dealing with family relationship issues as I feel guilty that I am not as close with my youngest sister as I used to be and I find we argue or resent each other even though we don’t want to admit it. We will be moving separately from each other now that I’m married but we share a lease still. It’s getting harder to get along right now. We’ve finally come to the point we always knew was coming when we would be going our separate ways as adults.

And my husband and I have had some issues too, stemming from a manic episode he had that resulted in some complicated feelings afterwards and some bad consequences. I just feel stuck in a negative bubble even though we’re all trying to make things better.

On top of that I realize that sometimes I am irrational or bossy and it hurts hearing people say that about you because you genuinely do a lot for them. Also I am pregnant and no one seems to be giving me any grace with the hormones, changes, and fears I’m going through. I’m always expected to be the strong one and I feel the pressure is too much.

This is really just a vent but I realize therapy could be helpful. I just need to get it out there