I’ve gotten to the point of not even wanting to take pregnancy tests anymore. 😭 after having a chemical pregnancy earlier this year, the doctors confirmed that with my medication to treat my high prolactin that I could get pregnant and to take it as a good sign that we would one day successfully conceive. I was so hurt from losing the embryo that I stopped taking my medication and decided to put off trying and thought maybe it would happen naturally if it was God’s plan for us. Long story short, I have a 5 year old son (praise God 🙏 ❤️) and I have secondary infertility by route of high prolactin and PCOS. I got EXTREMELY lucky to have my son naturally. I am going through my long divorce and custody battle and praying for relief as I have been separated for 5 years now. Nonetheless, we live in a 2 bedroom home and I know now isn’t the right time for us to have a baby but I want to have another baby so bad it physically hurts my soul. 💔 😭 I don’t know why that is because I’m dearly blessed with my son and my fiancé’s daughter also but I deeply desire to have another child of my own, one that will share my fiancé and I’s genetics. I’m tired of waiting for the “right time” but know that I am being responsible by choosing to do so. It’s just so hard after getting so excited earlier this year to the point of crying tears of joy, only to be told that I had a very early miscarriage. I’m ready but not ready for my rainbow baby 🌈