My mom always took any chance she could to humiliate me. I asked her to do my hair when I was 10 because I wanted to bond with her. Biggest mistake. My scalp was so congested with scabs, dandruff etc (I know now I have psoriasis) but instead of helping she took a photo and knocked on all the neighbors doors to tell them not to let their kids play with me cause I’m “nasty”.

When I “lost my virginity” I was 13 years old and it was with her boyfriends younger brother who was 21. Instead of being concerned she snatched me out of the shower by my hair and drug me around the house and tried to smash my head with a boulder. She said if I want to act grown she’s gonna beat me like I’m grown and that I better not try having sex with her boyfriend (she’s accused me since I was 7 of wanting to have sex with any boyfriend/husband she’s had) she then kicked me out and I slept in a park bathroom in the winter at 13 years old. She called everyone in my family and told them I was selling my body. Which isn’t true. I was an extremely shy and awkward kid and never left my bedroom because I was afraid of everything. My family gets mad at me for cutting her off. They always try to trap me into being with her because she’s “my mom”. If you’ve cut contact with a parent, do you regret it? I feel so much anxiety just hearing her voice. She use to let her husbands/boyfriends beat me, lock me in basements, closets etc. I wasn’t allowed to look at myself in a mirror or else I would “get pregnant” and was constantly told how ugly and disgusting I was.