Positive at 11dpo but can’t get excited?

Sophie

I’ve had 4 miscarriages (no obvious cause) and just found out today at 11dpo I’m pregnant.

I’ve tested 3 days before my period was due and on a cheap test so wasn’t ever going to get a dark line but can’t help but just feel emotionless :(

Does anyone else feel like this when they see a positive test after multiple losses? It feels impossible to let myself be happy