this is a bit long, i apologise in advance.

so i broke up w my now ex almost 4 months ago (we were together for 11 months), and ik breakups are hard, but usually when something that jus shatters my heart like that, i go numb and i dont feel anything, which is what happened but now im still feeling like maybe we were right person wrong time and i hate hit because i still feel so drawn to him and i jus cannot get him off my mind no matter what i do, school, training, or gym doesnt help, i even tried journaling and talking about it but i still feel like there’s something wrong with me, he moved on after a few weeks and i understand people move on in their own way and on their own time but i move on from things so easily and i jus don’t understand why im still so attached to him.

and for some silly reason, i feel like we’ll find our way back to each other because the love from him is so different to any love i have ever received from anyone and i feel like i wont be able to find anyone like him again because most boys nowadays want sex and not a real relationship which jus makes me feel like absolute shit.

thank you for taking time to read this little rant.