Coping with an ectopic

How do you grieve with your loss milestones? My pregnancy seemed to be perfect in terms of timing. I was as pregnant as my best friends baby was old (ex. When I was about 1 month pregnant her baby was 1 month old) we planned to do monthly photos that showed my bump while also showing the growth of her newborn. On top of that I would of had cute holiday bump photos. And I would of been exactly 12 weeks pregnant at midnight today (new years day) so I would of been able to celebrate getting out of first trimester at midnight tonight.

On top of that my pregnancy was going pretty well symptom wise it was pretty mild symptoms and I enjoyed every minute of it. It’s hard to be ttc again when I feel like my rainbow baby pregnancy won’t be as “perfect” Like I know the pregnancy probably wouldn’t of been perfect but it’s hard to let it go.