I am a stay at home mom but work odd jobs to help bring in income also I have a debilitating condition that at affects my nervous system back legs and feet. I haven't had a moment away from my toddlers in about a month. Sleep deprived from them every virus they've caught I do all the care taking. It's affecting my health as I have continuous pain spasms and circulation issues on a pain scale about a 8.

Today is January 1st I've been in bed most of the day. I can sense my husband's frustration with this and the kids meltdowns from being off schedule yesterday and up late. Logs of toddler meltdowns today.

We have no plans today and I'm honestly so sleep deprived and in so much pain. My husband won't say it but I know he's upset I'm "wasting the day" he'll say. I feel like I need more days like today. I am have been running wild the with the holidays and kids. I do it all the baking, arranging, gifts, parties, driving, loading up kids, organizing, the up late with kids off schedules, the organization of family outfits, cleaning, and I am glad to do it. I'm just absolutely in so much pain. I get pain isn't sick but it is wearing me down so bad. I'm in tears so much from it.

I also could just use alone time from all of them. I legit never have a second without them. I always have my kids with me. He goes out after work and catches a beer or hangs out with friends without kids. He runs errands without kids. I don't get that same luxury. Am I wrong for not even asking him if it's ok I just stay in bed and just keep sleeping? I just don't want to fight but I have legit needs that are not being taken care of.