I feel like everything that I want in my relationship will never happen on my terms or when it matters or when I need it to happen.

My husband feels the same way and that’s why we both don’t get what we want in terms of respect when we are upset with one another.

I feel that he is abrasive and mean. I dislike the way he express his displeasure when he is upset with me.

So why be a top notch wife if what I get is the bare minimum? He doesn’t think before he speaks. This year makes 9 years of having to deal w it.

Meh. Seems kinda pointless. It sucks that I have this energy going into the new year but I’m tired. And very tired of talking.

So here’s to 2023 and me putting in half the effort that I used to since it doesn’t count for anything in the long run.