I have reached a low point in my life. My husband and I have a 2 year old (almost 3 😭) and I can feel the time slipping through my fingers…she’s growing up so fast. I have to stomp down my anxieties and fears of something happening and loosing her. I could go on and on about my anxieties about something bad happening but I won’t.

It’s been a rough year. I had 3 miscarriages and in the process of exploring <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> found out that the reason for the miscarriages was because I had Antiphospholipid syndrome (I.e. sticky blood that causes blood clots). Now I’m being followed by a hematologist, a rheumatologist, and a sense of impending doom that my days are numbered. This shook me because prior to this bad things only happened to other people. To find out I am not invincible is scary.

My job is high stress but it pays well and has good benefits and a schedule that works for my family (630-230) it’s in a school system so there is the benefit of vacations. I’m burnt out and hate my job but cannot afford to leave it.

I need to make health changes - diet and exercise but I have no energy or motivation to do anything outside of the bare minimum during the week. My daughter is taken care of, healthy, and happy. I am drained and have nothing to give.

My relationship with my husband is strong and has never been better. We have great communication and are there for each other even when it’s hard. My daughter is amazing and thriving. He knows what i am going through right now but doesn’t know how to help me.

I’m not taking care of myself physically and emotionally. It’s especially important now that I have an APLS and at higher risk of blood clots. I don’t think a therapist will be helpful because what can they tell me I don’t already know . Do I skip straight to meds? Will that give me the jumpstart I need to be better?

Not sure what I am looking for. Maybe empathy? Personal experiences? Or just to vent?