Each week I have new symptoms at 7 weeks each morning I am crying. I can’t help but think about how scary life might be a mother of 3 kids and promising myself that my 3rd and last time will be done correctly. I really wanted my last to be with the man I know my boys and I deserve and it’s like a slap in my face to be doing it alone and being single. I know ppl will judge me prob are now and I am just scared for my boys this new baby and I future. My boys will be 9&7 and I’ll have a new born the month after and that’s a huge gap along with starting completely over. Words can’t explain how much I am beating myself up about the energy I no longer have to trying to remain super mom. Bc my boys and this baby deserves the world