TW: talks of creepy sexual men

I just wanted to post and talk about multiple experiences I’ve had recently or in the past that have affected me more than I realise. It’s become norm to get catcalled or groped walking into a club but this isn’t right? As a teen (12-15) I experienced catcalling often. At 15 I went to an under 18s nightclub (no alcohol etc ofc), and was wearing a knee long dress and got my bum grabbed whilst I was just out with my friends. At 16 two young men who I thought were stealing from me were actually just trying to touch my bum at a train station. At 17 I went to my then bfs garage to meet his uncle, to find I was met with multiple older men who started making very sexually explicit jokes about me, I felt terrified and uncomfortable. My exs dad said it’s just all “jokes”. At 17 I went to college and a guy who was “just being a guy” would make sexually explicit jokes about me all the time but everyone just said it was who he was. At 19-21 the amount of times I’ve gone to a club.. and had my bum smacked or waist grabbed it’s unbelievable. I screamed in a man’s face (admittedly I was a bit drunk) for smacking my ass unprovoked. On the same night a guy kept coming up to me, not asking me but asking the men I was on my night out with, if I was taken, didn’t ask me! Asked the men! They repeatedly said yes go away, after the 5th time he asked one of them pushed him back and told him get back so we got thrown out even after I explained to the bouncer. Only a few weeks ago someone tried to give me a roofied drink. Society although targeting this, it’s still so normalised and due to that I never thought I should feel any type of way about it. But I’m so angry, I’m upset, I remember the night in the garage and it makes my heart thud as I’m scared, and I’m so angry, so angry! At these men who thought that my body was somehow there’s? Is this something I should go to a therapist about? Honestly I just wanted to rant and share my experience. I hope you’re all doing okay❤️scary world