Another baby

So my SO and i want another baby but he is terrified of what happened with our youngest happening again dont get me wrong i am too and i regret not going back home when i had the chance which im from ohio and my SO is AD military and was stationed in new mexico so my last pregnancy all my care went through two obgyns offices in las cruces so little back story on that and also a huge TMI warning

This is also a long story so i shortened it

I started having pre-eclampsia symptoms at 18 weeks only thing that wasnt showing was my liver that was normal at 30 weeks i started having seizures i was told that they didnt believe me and shortly after birth i started hemorrhaging badly feeling like there was a weight on my chest i couldnt breathe i felt hot and cold at the same time and i felt an impending doom was over me a few days later i had a secondary hemorrhage and passed the rest of my placenta

I know every pregnancy is different just my last fucked us both up mentally from how i was treated and we both want another one but that fear is still there even after two years