I just gave birth to my daughter prematurely 2 days ago at 32 weeks 5 days and I look at her and I don’t think wow that’s my baby I think of nothing completely blank I never even held her I wasn’t like this during my pregnancy even though she was unplanned I took it in loved it but I broke up with her dad a couple days before she was born so I was struggling when I had the seizure that caused my emergency c section and I only just turned 23 I didn’t want kids then

I feel horrible looking at her I literally created her but I can’t feel anything towards her like it’s an out of body experience and I cry about it I loved her being in my body having the pride of knowing I grew her and now I just can’t connect to her and I feel so guilty