Hardest day ever.

Today I let my abusive boyfriend know I was truly finished with him. Two kids and am currently 14 weeks pregnant. Rent a house together and I was a stay at home mom who only could contribute a few hundred to the bills when he needed it. This is the hardest thing I could have ever done and I plan on crying myself to sleep tonight. No matter how he treated me or belittled me I still love him and will have to unlearn all of this for god only knows how long. I just pray I can find peace.