So I'm a lil over 6 weeks and I'm having a hard time wanting this pregnancy. At first I was ok with it but the further along I get the more I just don't want it. I always wanted to be a mom but then I got used to the idea of no kids. My husband and I have been together for 14 years and it's just been us. It's been nice to do what we want when we want. We are in our 30s. I just don't know what to do. I feel so horrible for thinking this. I even told my family when I found out and they're all excited but now I just don't know what to do. Do I have an abortion? Do I just go through with this and pray that once the baby gets here I'll be fine? What if I'm not fine what if I regret it even more? I hate this. I find myself hoping for a miscarriage and then I feel even more horrible. There's so many women who want a baby. Adoption unfortunately is off the table my family would flip on me and I'd probably lose most of them. If I had an abortion I would just lie and say I miscarry because none of them would believe in it. My husband supports me either way. I wonder if it's just because I've been feeling so miserable why I don't want this pregnancy. I dont want to be pregnant anymore and i dont want to be a mom. I feel like a horrible person. Sorry for the long post I just don't have noone other then my husband to talk to.