I have no recollection of ever being assaulted. Recently I found out my childhood next door neighbor was arrested, for on several occasions touching little girls. Ever since I found out about it, it has been heavy on my mind thinking about it quite a lot.

This man and his wife were good friends of my family growing up. We would invite them over for parties, cookouts, just to hang out, and also I was always at their house, usually accompanied by either my mom or grandma but I did go in alone a handful of times.

This couple was a Disney adult couple, they had no kids, and a lot of pets. Their house was completely decorated with Disney stuff and had a spare bedroom with walls from floor to ceiling filled with movies. Needless to say their home seemed like a playground to me as a little kid.

They would invite me over to see what new things they brought back from their most recent trip to Disneyland and ask me if I wanted to borrow a couple of their movies, so I would go over with an adult to pick out some movies almost weekly.

There was one instance at a family cook out we had invited them to where he asked me to sit on his lap, this wasn’t a Santa Claus type of sitting on lap, he had me straddle his leg. After what felt like forever someone from my family told one of my cousins to tell me to go play so I would get off him. I was about 5 or 6.

Around that age, I remember I would have what I now as an adult know were sexual dreams that I had no idea what that was when I would have them. I would undress my Barbie’s make them kiss and rub them against each ither. Everytime we went shopping for clothes, I would touch the mannequins where their privates would be, only male mannequins. I would tell my mom, my privates hurt from the jeans that day so she would put some Vaseline as like a diaper rash cream almost, because the pants were rubbing me too much and hurt me, but I would say that because i knew it would "tickle". I had a rescue ring nightmare of this scary man in a Halloween mask dressed in black that would hide behind these trees we had on the side of the house and would grab me and put me in a trash bag and throw me inside the trash bin and take me away, this nightmare would TERRIFY me. i also remember it would hurt to pee, i remember feeling like ot would burn and would tell my mom it was like my pee was VERY hot. im pretty sure i had to go to the hospital to be looked at, amd i remember the hospital because i remember laying down in a dark room with like a headlamp above me and being completely naked besides a hospital robe that had little colorful patterns of like an elephant or just any animal but the base color was like a blue, then saying i had to pee and the drs telling me to pee on the table but i refused so i had to get off the table go use the restroom and my pee being dark lookin when i looked at the toilet as i was wiping.

Now I don’t know if I’m just worrying myself and scaring myself because that awful man was SO close to our family and honestly could have had the opportunity to do something, and I’m just reading too much into the unreliable memories of a kindergartener. I’m a new mom my daughter just turned 1, I just turned 23. And that thought terrifies me because that couple was so nice I loved his wife, she was a highscool teacher and he was a professor at the community college I think. The wife would tutor me at my home, we didn’t really talk to him because he only spoke English and at the time my family and myself onky spoke Spanish, the wife spoke Spanish as well. I don’t believe the wife knew what he was doing to those girls, she divorced him a while ago at the same time she reported him, but only until recently did they make the arrest