It’s super complicated and a long story but I just got betrayed by my grandmother and grandfather and it’s absolutely killing me. It’s like a flesh eating disease it’s chipping away at me and I just feel numb constantly or I’m very angry and reactive to anything. I want to cry but I’m dried out when it happened I screamed and sobbed that scream of pure agony and desperation that makes you lose your voice in just a few minutes! I don’t understand why and I feel like I’m still in shock and I haven’t been talking to them and it’s hurts so bad they were my rock and my safe place and they just stabbed me in the back because they were manipulated by another family member that jealous and hates me. I just want their hugs again and to be able to call them but I know that will never happen I can never trust them again after they ruined a great opportunity for me by spying on me and telling my plans to this other family member and then insulting my father for no reason etc. I don’t wanna die but I can’t keep feeling this way I don’t understand I feel like a child unknowing that I did something wrong but being punished for it. They mean everything to me I fr saved my grandmothers life when she accidentally overdosed anytime they call and need help I’m the only one who shows and they kicked me aside for someone who cussed them out and blocked and said that I could wipe their ass and take care of them when they got to that point over them saying they were gonna move! They betrayed me and ripped my heart out and I can’t cope and the worst part is there’s nothing I can do I’ve tried talking to them they don’t think the vet done anything wrong!