I blame my baby

So I’ve posted here before I really didn’t really contexts to my daughter and I still don’t I’d had a hard birth about 3 hours after that I’d had a seizure due to complications ( I had pre-eclampsia while pregnant that lasted after birth causing problems) I’d been unconscious for a day after that in and out for the next day after that my body is really struggling I’m on constant watch I’d also had a haemorrhage after birth nearly died a yet I’m expected to love the child that caused these problems I just can’t. I’ve barely even see my daughter I just can think she’s mine I resent her it’s like my brain is wired to think she did this yet she’s just a a sick baby as well but I just can’t let it go