I had this dream that my husband cheated on me. No big deal it’s just a dream. But I feel like Everytime I have one of those dreams something is actually going on.

I went through his phone (I never do) but I did that day.

I’m three weeks postpartum, and for whatever reason he thought it would be a good idea to have 11 porn tabs open, and screen recording of pretty much nude girls on tik tok. I say girls, because they are 18! Porn was always forbidden in our relationship. We both agreed it’s a form of cheating. We’re in our 30’s….

My self confidence is completely shot. I’ve struggled with body image issues in the past, but this made it 100x worse. We have 3 kids together so I have a mom bod. I plan to workout when I’m cleared to do so.

But how do I forgive him for this?

He explained to me that I wasn’t meeting his needs, and that it wasn’t with a physical person he was looking at 😓😭