My daughter was born on 1/9 at just about 30 weeks. Her umbilical cord got wrapped too tight around her neck and she passed away. I delivered her dead and I am beside myself. I can’t shake this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I have almost 2 year old twins which I am so grateful for but I want my baby back and not another baby HER. She was so perfect her little face looked just like my daughter. I know I will carry this pain for the rest of my life and Idk how I will manage that. Everything reminds of what was was to be and will never be. All this is to say. I’m struggling 😢