8dpo am I crazy I think I see something

I had what I thought was implantation bleeding on 1/21.. then I realized it was probably ovulation bleeding because it was mixed with ewcm and my period didn’t come 2 weeks after and tests were neg. We BD around that time just in case. My cycles are irregular in the winter months (I got pregnant with my first in February 2019 at the tail end of a very long cycle). I do my best to try and track with opks but this month my cycle is now at 48 days and I kinda gave up 😵‍💫 I’ve been using these tests for a while now and never got close to any type of line. I swear I see something starting. The TWW is killing me 😬