Being around family that’s pregnant

How do I handle being around family that is pregnant?

Husband and I been trying to have a baby for a few years now. We usually have friends or not so close family members expecting.

But, this time is even a closer family member. And it’s definitely taking a role on me. I feel sad, jealous, why not me?

Going to gender reveal or even the baby shower already makes me sad.

What do I do…