I have yet to sleep tonight. I have now thrown up twice, once at 2 am and now at 4 am. I’ve had some absolutely miserable days and some okay days but overall I feel like I’m operating a 6/10 every day, at best.

It sounds bad but I don’t want advice, I just need to know I’m not the only one suffering. My best friend is pregnant and having none of the same issues. I’ve always wanted a big family, this is my first, and I honestly can’t imagine every voluntarily doing this again.