Anxious

I had a miscarriage in August of last year, a chemical in October and another chemical in January of this year. I took this test two days ago and every time I go pee (which is like every 10 minutes) I brace myself for the telltale spotting. I’m trying to breathe. I’m trying to stay positive. And I do have moments of excitement…but they are quickly clouded with trepidation. Today I’m 4w3d and I am going to make an effort to choose excitement. If only for my sanity.