Hi girls, I am ttc but that isn't the reason for this post, what I'm wondering if anyone can relate to my feelings and behaviours! To start I'll tell you I had a bit of a rough up bringing, neglect etc but won't go into details, however I think it may have affected me emotionally? Me and my partner have been together 4 half years and have a wonderful 2.8 year old, anytime of the year when there's a date that means there's any attention on me, birthdays Christmas, valentines day, I fill with self doubt and become a monster to my partner :( push him away and say and do anything possible to make him hate me ( not physically) does anyone else go through this? There's so much more to it but hard to put into words :'(