The anticipation is killing me ..

Alright I had a faint positive test last week with a dollar tree test . I tested the next day and with CBD and it was neg . I've been testing everyday basically and getting shot down . Then I had another very faint test this morning so I went and bought a first response thinking it's be positive . But it was negative too . AF is due tomorrow , but I had cramping on Friday . So of course my hopeful heart related it to implantation . But I guess I'm not pregnant this time around . We've only been trying for a month idk why I'm so discouraged . But I think I'm just gonna let it happen on it's own and not over analyze EVERYTHING . Were still trying but it'll happen when it happens . Letting go and letting god <3