Scared to hope

Melinda • Artist and writer and mom
Hey all. I am new to glow, first month using but eighth month TTC. I'm officially two/three days late for AF. My normal PMS pains and fury were mostly absent this time but I've had some symptoms that of course make me hopeful that this is our month.
​However, I've "felt pregnant" and let myself get all hopeful only to start AF the second I take the test or even think about taking a test.
​I'm trying to stay neutral, not crazy hopeful but not cynical either, and hold out until I am past the week late mark. 
​Does anyone else wait this long to test? What keeps you sane and levelheaded? Should I break down and test Friday when I get paid? Or should I hold out? Or should I buy one of those cheapo ones and risk a heartbreaking false negative?