Just last night...

I decided to break up with my boyfriend, I went over to pick up my stuff and we ended up talking and crying and even some fighting till one am in his parking lot... My heart broke into a million pieces when he walked away. We broke up because we have been constantly fighting lately. I'll take the blame. I'd get angry over anything, why? I believe because of the underlying issues such as my lack of trust for him. There had been issues about another girl from the get go. Two more times this fucking bitch came between us when on two occasions I had found out he was still texting her. The second time, he had tried to erase them but I'm a techie and got around that quick. The second time happened about a month ago but it was still always on my mind. They work together, how did I know they still weren't talking and flirting? Anything he did became suspicious. There was so many amazing qualities about him. I fell for him because I thought he was a good guy. His family was just as quirky as mine and we both created strong bonds with each other's families. He'd make me smile like never before. His mom would even tell us how beautiful our children would be. They told him I was so pretty, something they never said about any girls prior, and they thought the world of me. I just don't understand why he would still have this other girl in mind when everyone around him thought I was so amazing. I initially met him at work and he was always told I'm out of his league. Is that why he did it? He felt he wasn't good enough? Let me tell you, this girl is white trash to the core. She's a big one too. She has a reputation. It is infuriating to think about. I guess so what if she wins him eventually, it's his karma. It's so hard to think about without crying though. It stressed me out more than it was worth. In the end, he made his choice. As much as it hurt me, us, our families, I don't deserve anything less than full attention and a partner who adores only me.