All mixed up (no judging please)
This year I was diagnosed with PCOS. To most people my age it's not a big deal, but my boyfriend d and I want kids when we're married so bad. He says to not worry about it, but it's so hard, because even before I found out I had convinced myself that I wouldn't be able to have kids. I've even done some pretty stupid things because of it.
Recently the last couple of times we've seen eachother (he's in the military, so right now it's about once a month) we've had sex basically unprotected (I was technically on birthcontrol but the 1st time I had just start the day before and the second I was on antibiotics... Both of which he didn't know about). Both times my period even came late.
Over the weekend (April 19-20), I visited my boyfriend for my birthday, and as expected, we had sex. (My birthcontrol had ended about 2 weeks ago -again him not knowing- and didn't use any protection at all.
I know what I did was terrible and I feel awful, and I know that right now wouldn't be the best time be pregnant, but I a part of me wants to prove myself wrong. I'm despriate.
Is it weird that I get so disappointed when I get my period? What's your take?
(Please be nice)
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