23 days late and scared to test

We have been trying to conceive for about three years now. I've finally given up hope a few months ago. Several friends have kids, a few are pregnant now and recently (as in yesterday) a friend had a little girl AND not one but TWO of my nephews (we are close in age) picked out names for their new additions. It is so frustrating when I've been trying for years. I was supposed to start 4/4-5. Around that time I've had slight cramps but I just thought I was getting my period. Now I'm 23 days late and scared to test and get that BFN. I don't want to get my hopes up again after finally beginning to look past not being able to get pregnant.