Moving on from MC. help:(

I need to figure out how to move on from my miscarriage. I had a D&C in October and still feel so down about it. I see kids and babies & I instantly want to cry.. Sometimes I feel like just dying because I was so excited to have my baby and now I just wish I could rock & hold my baby all day long.. I'm at the point where I can't vent about it to my boyfriend.. He says one of us has to be strong but in my crazy head it feels like he just doesnt care (although I know that's not true) it just makes it hurt even more. Feel like I can no longer hold it together... I just need advice on how to move on... Please. Literally not a day goes by that I don't think about it and just wanna crawl into bed and cry.