Confused

So I started spotting 4 days early for AF. I know  about implantation so I took a test day after just to see. It was a BFN. I had a few times with bright red blood when I wiped and a few times more on brownish side when wiped. Never enough bleeding to see except when wiping. Now it is the day AF Is due and I am not even spotting. I am so frustrated with how irregular these things have gotten since TTC. May was month 9. I have June and then we will be apart July and August. Trying not to think about it to much but SHEESH!  GL to all the ladies testing this month!!