I want a BFP.

I miscarried may 9th but I ovulated last month, took opk's and all... But now I'm getting cramps and tender breasts, I don't wanna get my hopes up again, but I think this could be it, and ideas? Also I did BD every day in my fertile week, just scared. I don't wanna lose another young one, glow says to test tomorrow, but on top of that... My BF says he wants this baby but he won't ever do anything for me, he won't get me any tests, and I'm currently unemployed after my boss told everyone about my MC and I'm just not comfortable goin back, so I'm looking for work. But I just, I don't know, he says e wants to try but he doesn't act it, an he brought up the MC last weekend when we were sitting by a campfire with a friend joking about my MC... But when I refer to my MC as "losing my first child" he gets offended and tells me it's his kid too. Idk. He's just been so hard to understand lately. I just want affection, I've been crying ALOT and he just called me a "bawl baby" or "cry baby" to everyone else outside of PA.