It sucks

Sorry I haven't been on much. Been babysitting my neighbours ten month old baby girl with DB and I've just felt a little down. Also little lady got hold of my phone and dropped it so it smashed my screen! Oops ! Anyway, DB is so good with her, she is still here now and I'm absolutely shattered but I love evey minute of it, also DB has see. How broody I'm getting around her and how much I want a baby even more but he said looks forward to now and don't look to the future. He has a point but this is so hard and I just feel like giving up.. This will never happen to me.. I just want to cry but have no where to escape to for me to shed a few tears