Negative Opk RANT :(

Have been testing for ovulation since cycle day 10 at first i thought the lines would get darker as they seem to be but still havnt i started spotting from cycle day 23 which i thought was start of AF but was too early for me in my cycle as i have long cycles well spotting stopped after 4 days dnt know if it was IB but i continued to do opk testing and now can barely see a second line on the testing strips cycle day 28 today im getting sooo frustrated with all this can't take it anymore, makes me go crazy! maybe i should stop doing everything and forget about it its my 7 months of ttc going onto 8 months im trying to stay positive but sometimes feel really sad will i ever get to see my first ever BFP? sorry just had to let it out, i cn breathe now