Tears

It's been a bad month. 4th month (really) TTC...CD 28...12 DPO. (My cycle is usually 25 days...I was so hopeful) Cried like a baby when I got a BFN
​I am the only one of my friends married. The only one who wants a baby. Earlier this month I had to listen to my friend talking about the abortion she got a few weeks ago and how happy she is she got it. I wanted to throw up I felt so sick listening to her. I tried to be supportive and not judge her decisions...she asked me "what's new with you?" And I let her know that we were trying and having difficulty. She shut up  pretty quickly...but after another bfn. I just can't stop crying.