8/9dpo consider myself out!

I got my positive opk and peak on Clearblue fertility monitor on cd 14 which works out the 17th June and I tested there and BFN! ? I generally consider myself out at this point because with my son I had a quite noticeable line on a test that you are meant to use from the day of your missed period. And I've always fallen pregnant pretty quick, for my 3 miscarriages I got pregnant first month trying. Even used balance activ's fertility gel. Deflated! I thought I was with the crazy dreams I had been having, last week I dreamt my upstairs  neighbour had cancer and I had to keep her 4 kids.... It was mad.