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HELP!! :(

Stephanie • Sun, Jun 29

So I just had my son (first born) on 04/02/2014 two days before my due date... I had a perfect pregnancy, perfect delivery, perfect child... I couldn't ask for a better first experience.

So why am I ranting? Well of course I wanted to wait some time before having another child so at my 6 week check-up I discussed my birth control options with my doctor and had consequently gotten my period back since I'm not exclusively breast feeding and definitely thought it was a good time to start the birth control pills.

So I picked up the pills and started taking them every morning when I woke up and waited 2 weeks then started having unprotected sex with my son's father again.

Fast forward: 2 weeks later and I just got my big fat positive (BFP) on Friday!!

Congratulations to us... we're pregnant again!!

So of course this is great news except for some reason I am terrified of this pregnancy!! I was super excited with my first pregnancy from day one up until the end and never had any negative thoughts but for some reason with this one all I keep thinking is:

-how is my son gonna be affected by this?

-my due date is 1 month before his 1st birthday

-will he get to enjoy his 1st birthday?

-will he feel neglected when a newborn is needing all of the attention?

-we have a 2 bedroom apartment... If it's a girl, will he have to give up his room we set up especially for him?

-will this baby be as good as he was/is? (He never gave any trouble sleeping, fussing, hasn't been sick, doesn't cry a lot... He's an amazing baby)

-will I love this baby the way I love him?

-will my son suffer in the long run cuz this baby will always have a bday right before his?

-will this baby be as healthy as he was?

-will this baby be born with any serious illnesses or conditions?

-will I have as good a pregnancy?

-will I have complications or lose the baby?

Like I said, I didn't have any of these thoughts with my previous pregnancy and please don't judge me if I seem selfish with my thoughts... I want many kids just more spaced out and I feel horrible for thinking this way!!

Has anyone else experienced this?? Please help with kind words, advice and no judgement!!! This is keeping me up all night I'm so worried that I can't sleep.

My son's father is super supportive about the situation but I'm just so nervous!!

Thank you

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