Kind words needed

A little backstory my husband and I have been together for 10 years married for almost 3. We recently (FINALLY!!!!!!) decided the beginning of this month we would start TTC. Well, I recently discovered a lump on my thyroid and it needed to be biopsied. I was advised by my doctor to hold off all baby-making until I get the results. I'm trying to stay positive, but today I finally got some EWCM and it's heartbreaking because it's just going to waste... Pity party over ?