Opinions

I love my husband we have been togther for 15 years but he was a drunk n smoker n mentally abused me on many occasions . He now has 7 months sober and is a great guy , but maybe it 
​A me I can't get the hate out or the anger that for years I asked him to get help n he never did . I feel like I want out but then again there's this new guy who stoped drinking n smoking and wants to show me his changed . It's hard cause all I do is look for something bad daily cause that's all  used to .