didn't know I wanted to be pregnant so bad....

when DH and I would talk about kids it was always very candid. we wanted a family and kids were always in the picture. however it wasn't until he was about to leave town for a bit to take a new job that we really got serious about ttc... we considered the circumstances with him in another city and me pregnant and decided that whats the harm in trying... well I didn't know I wanted to have a baby this darn bad until now... 3 days late for my period 3 BFN and prayers that it's just taking my hcg levels a while to build up.... i just want to know either way so i can try to plan for whats next...of course everyone ttc wants a BFP sooooo bad....I just didn't know I was one of them...

this is sorta a ramble I just needed to get it out. even if there are no comments it feels good to just get it out...