I'm in need of some positivity.

So I know this isn't the right board BUT, I love coming in here and reading everyone's news about their BFP and I'm in need of some inspiration. How likely is it to get a BFP in your first month of TTC? I am 10dpo and so anxious I almost don't want to test because I'm afraid of what i will see but at the same time I am wondering if I am having symptoms or if I'm just making them up in my head because i want it so bad. Sorry for the rant ???