So over it -tmi

Got a reminder to have sex. I must have ovulated this past weekend though with EWCM and horny as hell. Been horny and wet since I stopped my period. Today glow says it's the most important day and I have creamy CM. I want to give up on everything until my cruise in A few months due to stres and tired of trying, but I can't unknow what I already know about TTC. I also signed up for the additional program and feel like I am jipping myself by not taking advantage of the program. I just want to delete the app so it will stop reminding my of our TTC journey. Been trying not to think about babies and have to constantly interrupt my thoughts that usually go there throughout the day.