Debating on whether to try or give up

​I've wanted a baby for a long time then I got pregnant right after our wedding. We lost that baby in November. It was a bad few months leading up to and after that. I now have no desire to try again but then I see a baby and well then I think maybe. I was so excited last time but he wasn't at all. It was really bad timing for us honestly. Now I'm looking for a place for us and two bedrooms are cheaper than 3. But I'm conflicted bc I know I wanted a baby for forever and now well now I just feel like ...I'm not really sure how I feel anymore. Anyway thanks for listening.