Taboo Tuesdays: Jealousy

I hate to admit this - because I like to think I am a nice person - but when I was TTC, I "hated" every pregnant woman within a hundred miles - with the exception of a few VERY good friends.

As for everyone else - the only thing I ever thought of was: Why them? Why not me? *I* would make SUCH a better mother. They suck. Life isn't fair. (Look, I am not proud of it, but it really is how I felt at the time.)

I cannot tell you the number of times I sobbed hysterically upon hearing that some random woman I vaguely knew was pregnant. Sobbed, big wet hot mess of tears at someone else's joyous news. Nothing in my life made me a jealous as being unsuccessful at TTC. I've never cared if you were richer than me or prettier than me. But my goodness, I was green with jealousy over those big pregnant bellies. 

What about you? Do you get jealous of other women's pregnancies? Or do you handle it with a grace that I could never muster? How do you cope?