Worried, nervous and optimistic all at once!

Hello Everyone! My name is Jen. I've only recently joined the Glow community (past 5 days). My husband and I have been TTC for the past year with no luck. We have both been to see the doctor with no major issues to speak of. One of our biggest issues is that he is home for three months and then ships out for three months. So we try and try for three months and then it comes to a full stop. These BFN are very draining for me, all I want is to be a mom. We've been pretty much keeping the whole process to ourselves. That has been difficult as well. It's pretty awesome that you guys are all here to lend a helping ear. It's just been rough...