TTC crisis x

I'm stumped and don't know what to do. I never though that my biggest issue with ttc would be hubby's (un)willingness to participate! It was O day for me yesterday..... And nothing ? we talk about starting a family, and I know he is keen....  I wonder if my emotional roller coaster over the past 5 months (since our mmc) has taken it's toll on him....? I guess I was such a wreck (and still have my bad days) that he never had the opportunity to grieve ? I can only imagine that he's thinking... 'What if it happens again?!' I'd love to BD today, just incase we were still in with a shot... But I know I need to put his feeling before my own right now and back off. (It's heartbreaking for me to think another month has gone by and no ttc or BFP) I guess I'll just keep quiet on the bd subject until he's ready to roll (we have no issue during all non fertile weeks, bring on the ferrite week and the shop us shut ?) 

I think I am more relaxed about ttc this month that last month, I guess next month I'll have to take my 'calm ttc' up a notch. 

Am I alone in this?

Have you ever experienced anything similar? Xo