How to squirt

This question is coming from a girl who sadly and embarrassingly has never had an orgasm. :( I've came really close to it (so I believe) and I get scared and I like tighten up instead relax. Do all girls squirt? Do men think it's hot or gross? My mind is like still a virgin lol. I don't know that much about sexual things even thought I'm not a virgin. Please no hate!