what I hate. ( just venting )

Ok so my boyfriend is the first guy I ever gave oral too. I'm 18 so I think that's good . But anyways he old like really old ??  & I already have low self estem doing it for him. I just feel like I can't compare to the woman that are experience . & another thing he say smart comments like "watch porn see how they do it" like bitch! or he play porn and be like "bae look how she suck it" like I find it so disrespectful I kicked him last time. But the crazy thing is he be moaning when I do it but WHATEVER ?