Starting over.....

OK so I know a lot of y'all have read my story, I'm a lesbian TTC. Well I got bad news that our (my wife n I) donor doesn't wanna donate anymore. After 3momths of donating and $200 payment he wants out. I've cried all day long because I feel this was our only chance of having a baby. We don't have enough money to go to a sperm bank, that's y we found 1; well he came to us with the idea. So hurt n lost at this point. N to make matters worse this is my fertile week. N we only did 1 insemination which was yesterday...... BLOWN